Five years later - Hello! (°O°)

Oh my God!!

Five years since I've written the last blog entry.
You know, a lot of things happened and what should I say...

*~ jobwise ~*

I've returned to nursing, and it was the best decision I could have made.
After trying out a lot of different job, nothing seemed to fit me:
Working in the ice-cream parlour went utterly wrong.
I started a second apprenticeship in media design, but screw that.
I worked seriously on my own business from 2018 on, but without a real graduation of anything, I can't work as a layouter or illustrator with fair payment. ("You're not a professional! Keep it cheap!" - No, sorry.)
Working in a coffee shop was a good experience but with the pandemic, starting from 2020 it screwed me, my old boss tried to bully me and afterwards, having a stop at a shoe shop, I had enough.

I applied to my old hospital which I studied nursing at, and made it.

So, now I'm a happy nurse in the cardiology department since August 2021. <3
I will also start a traineeship to become a mentor for nursing students. <3

I am really looking forward to it!!

*~ hobbywise~*

I also started playing volleyball in 2020 again.
I started running from April 2020, too.
Both is, what I really love.

I still draw fan art and love to write fan fictions.

And I started to cook more seriously.
More than baking at the moment, haha

*~ travelwise ~*

We made it to Japan in 2019!!

Gosh, it was such an excellent trip and I really miss the country, Tokyo, Osaka, my friends.
I don't miss Kyoto as we had the hottest days there and a lot of trouble (haha), but everything felt so much lighter.
Especially the food. I miss the food!! ;__;

Unfortunately, we couldn't go in 2020 and who knows how long it will take until we can travel there again for holidays.

Funny, that sometimes my fiancé and I have the thought of going abroad for a long time there.
But this will never happen.
So we have to travel, when we're on vacations, right? <3

*~ privatewise ~*

I'm still together with the best man of the world. (for me haha)

We had some trouble, we struggled, but we're still together and very happy.

I moved in with him in 2019 and right now, we have our own home, we have a dog AND...

...

I'm looking forward to get married

on 18th May 2022!! (>///<)

There's a lot to think about, as we're already 33...

We have to have a talk about "family", too...

So I think, I have a lot to tell you in the near future, step by step.
Also about clothes, etc.

Let's see, when I can write the next entry. <3

(Because I've seen some manga blogger, I thought it would be nice to continue with this blog)

Haul: essence eyeshadow palette

Hello everyone!

Summer's here. We had some really hot days recently but now everything is cooling down again.
That's more than good for me as I can't bear the sudden warmth.
Really...

Well I haven't bought a lot of make-up recently.
But because my favourite brand KIKO replaced its good old round eyeshadows and also the colours I had to look for other options.

I really love pink eyeshadow and always wear a combination of white, nude and pink on my lids.
Since KIKO I love to have a golden glimmer in the pink one, so it was really hard to find fitting eyeshadows.

Now, essence got a new line up in out drugstores - And I couldn't resist to buy them.

I won't write anything about the quality.
Before I put eyeshadow on my lids I always put on some foundation.
So there isn't any problem with the "non lasting" fact.

But there is something else I wanna write about:

essence sells the eyeshadows in small pots and they sell a palette extra - two sizes.

Good thing: you won't have a lot of pots in your beautycase if you're going out.
They are placed neatly in the palette and can't drop out or smear your case.

Bad thing: the palette is big. The former eyeshadow combinations "quattro" were much more handy to take them with you.

I think it would have been nice if they sell the palettes with a brush.

Nevertheless I really love the colours.
Even the white is a bit shimmering. <3

Do you noticed the names? 

Snowflake - Cotton candy - Raspberry Frosting.

Lovely <3

I'm happy to have found my dearest colours again.
I always wear three or more colours - so I have to smudge them casually.

But doing eye make-up is one of my favourite things!

And the best: Everything I need I can get now by essence for a good price.

Spring's starting for me, too

Hello Girls!
How are you doing, today?

It is spring or at least the calendar told us so...
but the weather is a real upside down.
I wish for some for degrees and much more for the sun.

Well, in an hour I have to go to work.
I started working in the ice-cream parlour like I did in 2011, just another location.
It's not all guns and roses but it's the best option I had for sure.
In September I'll start my acquaintanceship an getting ready to become a graphic designer.
I'm happy that this turned out well, finally.

Actually, I always wanted to become a graphic designer since I was a high school student but never made it.
I think, I didn't put enough effort into trying back when.
Now it's different.
The hard work will start in September and the pre-walk was hard, too, but I'm so looking forward to it.

Well and I slacked off training recently... Haha....
but that's the problem if I stand the whole day in the shop - My legs are trained, cardio as well, but my upper body part... I'll start again this week!

But the best part just happened to me on 4th March 2017.

I can't tell you how happy I am and how really, really, REALLY blessed I feel...

Through all the years there was this one person in my heart who I couldn't forget at all...
To be honest, he was my first one true love and that made it even harder to try to forget, right?

We really suited each other back when but due to certain circumstances I just couldn't go on in the relationship and have to berak it. Unfortunately.
I really regret it afterwards and I usually don't regret any decisions in my life because at that moment I couldn't have done better.
But that break-up was something I really regret.
Moreover, I realized 2015 that I still love him and that I fall more and more in love with him every single day.

Well, kissing frogs didn't help, too, and after having my heart broken in January "I don't want to have a boyfriend again!" - I told myself but of course that's just temporarily.
In my opinion everybody longs for love.
(Not the partnership love but love in its basics.)
As for me I want to have somebody by my side who loves me, who wants to be loved by me, who I can marry in the future, have a family, etc. ...

So when January happened I really felt in two ways...
The first was my own break-up, the second that my first love had suddenly a relationship.
Haha... well I tried to convince myself I was just so down because it was the final end, that we both went on, etc. ... But the real feeling was something else.

Thanks to my little sister I was able to go through this all and much more... to be honest for the first time and to tell my feelings directly.
I'm not good in telling somebody that I love that person in the first way.
I'm a coward.
But I want to change to a better person and being honest and true to yourself is so important.
Much more I was sure that I would regret it for the rest of my life if I didn't confess.




My sis asked him directly what he was thinking abnout me and... well... things developed ...



We call each other "the idiot's couple" because... somehow we are.
But it's funny and nobody else is like this.

We still complement each other in the best way and we still need to learn how it is if another person cares for you the best way he or she can... It's nothing we experienced before.

He's the best what have ever happened in my life.

He gives me so much strength it's unbelievable.

Really.

I just love him.

For over 7 years, for 7 more, for the whole future I want to spend with him.




Really girls... it doesn't matter WHAT it is you fight for...
but do it.

Do it because you only have this one life.

I think it's important to fight for the things you want to have happen in life.
It's not always possible to accomplish but at least we tried.

In my opinion, regretting is something we can prevent a lot...  and we should.

So... the next time will be a blog entry about.... food.
Yes. I think so.

I have been going to a lot of restaurants this year and most of them were just adorable and delicious. <3

A lot of changes

Hello my dear girls,

it's already January 2017 and I haven't been blogging a lot.

Reason is simple: Work.

I worked and... I worked after work.

Another thing: moving.

I finally moved to my own flat and I'm so relieved and so happy and I love it.

The third reason: I lack writing recently. :')

But let's start all over again! (How often did I tell you that?)



So what happened since June 2016?

I moved to my own flat end of August. Thanks to my wonderful friends it was easy and done quickly.
Getting arranged everything just needed more time but right now I'm happy with my one-room-flat.
I've got a balcony, a kitchen, a bathtube ... oh and a wonderful floor! <3
Today I'll get a new bed - comfortable 140x200cm size. Wow!
I was just in need of that.
It's second hand but who cares as long as it is okay?
So I don't have to pay much.

In August I became part of a friend's project - I'm in the graphic department of that group and develop illustrations, flyer, etc.
It's really fun and I finally realized that this is what I want to do.
Absolutely.
Forever.
So I struggled up until now if I should apply for an apprenticeship again.
Well... I did.
And I'm still on to that!

I'm doing so many projects right now and I can't be stopped.
Really.
Art is amazing.

In September I was on a day trip with my best friends to Warnemünde.
You know that I've been there several times but it's just great every time I go there.
We spent funny hours at the beach, in a restaurant, in the town... so great.
I want to do this next year, too!
The weather was awesome!

In October I went to my first convention this year: ComicCon in Berlin.
I was able to meet James Marsters and Billie Piper, getting an autograph and a photo, and also to meet the awesome Steve Scott and several other (hobby) artists from Germany and all over the world!
So impressive!
I also met a lot of other Doctor Who fans - because I was dressed up as Rose Tyler and Clara Oswald on this weekend, it was super fun!

In October I also had a girlish birthday party with my twinsnake - we celebrated in pink, with unicorns and 50s dresses. It was just a small party but wonderful. <3

Oh, and I started ice skating. I love it! <3
It's one of the most wonderful sports in the world.




November... well... here's the hardest part and also the most comfortable one...
I went to Munich with my bf.
I was loveydovey super happy.
I was so proud of being his gf.
I was so happy and feeling so right by his side.
And people who know me know that I'm not that kind of person who can say so that easily.

December... month of illness.
First some light flu, then the real one at Christmas.
It was the reason why I couldn't meet him again.
He also caught a bad one and so we couldn't spend the holidays together.

And the so new year started.

First, I was still unable to work thanks to the real flu I haven't had for over 15 years.

Second, I lost my job. The illness was the trigger. The reason was another thing which wasn't my fault at all.


Third, we broke up. (I'm more disappointed and hurt than sad... please, don't feel the need to be perfect girls or that you are less worth than other people just because you lack of health. Someone who wouldn't be standing by your side because you got a tiny little health issue isn't worth anything. REALLY)

Still I'm in a hiding-wanna-cuddling mode right now.
That's how it is.

And I ate too much chocolate.
Never thought I could be a comfort eater.
But I was on Sunday to Tuesday.
Right now I'm taking care of my body again.

Fourth, I try to heal myself with Sherlock, a best buddy and a lot of drawing and preparing stuff.

Oh, and I started the BBG training. It really helps to get myself in shape and I feel MUCH BETTER with that... I may should write about it?

You know, every cloud has a silver lining.

I did win something with my art in January.

I may be heartbroken but it showed me how strong I can be and what kind friends I have.

I know that I can do much more than everyone is telling me.

Work's loss isn't terrible. It was just a bad timing but I wanted to go anyway.
New opportunities.

My year started on Monday.

So please be sure to make the best out of it!

Be yourself!

Be healthy!
Be happy!

Be proud of yourself!

Love yourself!

Hamburg after three years

Dear girls,

it has been such a while since I went to Hamburg.
More than three years!!

And the day didn't start too well...

I missed the train, the train at Hauptbahnhof was on delay for 20 minutes... holymoly.
I was happy that I could finally arrive at Hamburg Altona at 11 AM.

There I met Nadine's mum. I was so happy to see her again!
She looked so beautiful! <3

We went to a nearby café, drank a Latte Macchiatto / green tea with orange & caramell syrup (I love syrup!! <3 I absolutely recommend you this mixture!) and had a little talk.
I only got time until 12.30 PM because I had a date then.

But... the biggest surprise was... a former colleague of Nadine's mother we met there... she looked like an older version of RAN-PYON! <3

I was so in love with her hair!!! <3

I wanted to take a photo of her but I didn't haha... Still, I never forget that impression!

WOW!

Well and then... 12.30 PM I met up with... well yeah.

Because we were hungry, we first went to this very cool Japanese restaurant Matsumi.

It was great to talk and order everything in Japanese then but I noticed once more that I really suck in speaking. I envy him. ;__;

We had a great meal, talked about a lot of things and then went to... Mundsburg,

having a slight stop in a shop, there I got THIS

and continued to go to Wandsbeck because of taking some purikura.

It was a new machine with a lot of new backgrounds and stamps... I really enjoyed this one!

And it was possible to get two photos on your mobile phone as it is in Japan!

That was pretty cool! <3

Moreover we were able to get some 2nd hand manga in Japanese... I couldn't resist to buy those two...

some nostalgic feeling and "scary lessons" is just great! <3

We had a short break at Hafencity and Speicherstadt and then just really stopped at Landungsbrücken. Unfortunately it was too late to have a harbour tour but nonetheless having ice-cream is also great! <3

What is your favourite kind of ice-cream?
I really love stracciatella!

Well around 7 PM I had to get back to Berlin.

My father was so kind to pick me up at the Hauptbahnhof. <3

And he bought me a magazine...

I started Yoga a year ago and always skipped excercises...but I want to do it

properly again since it's good for your health!

 

Starting again really felt good. <3

 

 

 

And of course... here are some photos <3

 

 

 

 

Colonaden - I didn't know this part of Hamburg before although
it's right next to Gänsemarkt, where the Sanrio shop is located.

 

 

 

Getting to Hafencity and Speicherstadt

 

 

I love this automobile!
I also want to drive around in one when I'll get married.

... IF I ever get married. Haha.

 

 

There was this really cool Mexican Navy ship

which will sail off a few days from now.

It was exciting to get on bord.

(I still love Navigation and everything else which is located with that <3)

 

 

 

<3 ~ It was such a wonderful day ~ <3

 

 

 

 

I feel a little bit loveydovey right now.

Haha....

 

Hazukashii yo~ <3

 

 

 

A really short Shopping Haul

... which is already a little while ago. :'D
I met with a dear friend one Friday after work and

we just met up to go to our English café but it was closed

and now it's... a Bangkok one.

We didn't want to go there so we decided to go to
Wilmersdorfer Straße, doing some window shopping

and having a nice coffee or whatever.

Tanja introduced me to a student café-bar that I want

to recommend you the next time, I'll write about soon.

So... what did we find?

Do you know the shop TIGER?

This one got a lot on unnecessary stuff but with a lot of
childhood memories, too. Games, crayons, kendama, ... it was

fun just to look at all the stuff. Furthermore there was a lot of cute

stationary stuff, too!

I used the time to buy some silly presents for friends just beause I can!

I was always kidding with my twinsnake that we would
paint a huge pink strawberry on the kitchen wall (just as

it was seen at PomPom's crêpes back when).
So THIS strawberry jewellery case was just perfect for her! :D

And here are more presents...
Some ducks for Hannah who is so in love with them and

collects everything with them.

A headband with Elsa for a friend's daughter who will be enrolled

in school this year. (She's in love with Elsa, haha)

And a bracelet for sisters. The golden one's for my lil' sister of course. <3

They even got some alcoholic markers.
I still have to try them out, but they were cheap, so why not?

Water colors!

And here... is some upcoming cosplay stuff.
I want to do a remake of Misty in August.

The brown pants are for Saki.

I just love them!! <3

Some more clothing...

A flourish t-shirt and finally a thin black cardigan again...
I lost mine some years ago and I was always in trouble
finding this one again. <3